So, after not doing too well at all on my first quiz in Hebrew, I determined I was going to conquer this language no matter what. I prayed over my books and asked the Lord to open the mind of my understanding. And guess what? He answered my prayer and the language with its many rules began to open up to me. I spent the entire day and night, studying Hebrew and catching up on my assignments!!
You have not because you ask not or either you ask amiss! (James 4:3) Ask for those things concerning the kingdom and receive them! (Matt 6:33)Thank You Lord!!
God knew I would be in this place. He knew I would come to a place where I was not enough. He knew I would enter a place of testing and proving. He knew I would question my place and that I would struggle to be free of it. He knew I would pull away.
God knew I would be in this place. A place of desperation and fear; a place of separation; a place where I felt different and alone. He knew He would find me here. Here hiding from the pain of difference; here shielding myself from the common and fickle nature of the world; here trying so hard to fit into a place I could not.
God knew I would be in this place. A place of decision; a place of inquiring; a place of struggles and challenges. He knew and He stood by watching as I floundered in the sea of struggle and decision making; He watched as I became submerged in doubt and fear; as I sank one, two, three times. He stood by watching and waiting for me to cry out; to stretch out my hand. He waited until I realized I could not help myself. He waited until I came to the end of me then He reach for me and pulled me out!